Hi, I’m a recent graduate from college, I majored in Biochemistry with a minor in Mathematics. I’ve been looking for jobs in the field because I don’t think the med school route is a commitment I can make at this time and I want to explore my options. I’ve been looking in the New York/Boston area for some entry level jobs (lab technician, research associate, etc.) but most are requiring certain levels of certification that I don’t have at the moment. I am really looking for outsourcing opinions or some guidance on the route some of you all have taken because I feel like I’m shooting in the dark. I have done a multitude of undergraduate research mostly in the realm of analytical chemistry (using HPLC, mass spectrometry, etc.) Money isn’t really a driving factor, but I’m looking for a position where I can work and become more confident in my in lab abilities. Math is a strong suit of mine so somewhere I can utilize that ability in data analysis and/or interpretation.
All in all, any recommendations you may have will be greatly appreciated in helping me on this journey. I just don’t want to commit to something I’m not confident about. I do want to eventually go back to school to pursue my PhD, just not at the moment.

Quick question with lengthy context
Question :How many of the nine worlds do you get to enter in this game including only the dawn of Ragnarok DLC, and do you actually get explore them (open world segments or are they just segways to boss fights etc.?
Also how far do I have to be in the game to play these segments because I heard the game is long.
Context
Recently AC Valhalla went on sale and it made me think about buying it since I had some reservations about whether or not I'd actually enjoy it since I wasn't sure about how the combat felt relative to what was happening on the screen. In addition to that I'd just finished reading Magnus Chase for the second time and finished Vinland saga for the first time I was too much in awe with Nordic mythology. My fifth play though of Skyrim might've helped too. I would've played God of War Ragnarok ,but I don't have a PlayStation.
Thanks

I acquired my GCP certifications by studying through Google Cloud's Coursera courses and reading Google Cloud's documentation(a lot of free time back then).
As I prepare for my re-certifications, I have decided to explore non-official Google Cloud materials. However, shortly after starting, I find them more confusing than helpful. Additionally, their wordings differ from those in Google Cloud's official resources.
For example, in one of the ACG courses, they marked Global Cloud Spanner Instance against Multi-Reg. Cloud Spanner as the answer, even though Cloud Spanner is not a global service.
Another example and I rephrased the question without missing any important context: Given the directive to reduce costs, the team wants to shut down the VMs during periods of inactivity while preserving their contents to resume work when necessary.
There are 5 options but let's focus only on the 2 possible options, which is 1. Use Cloud Scheduler to automatically suspend the VMs at the end of each day. 2. Use Cloud Scheduler to automatically stop the VMs at the end of each day.
The given answer is 1 and the reason is because Programmatically suspending the VMs without deleting them will save costs and preserve data. Stopping the VMs will lose the data.
I don't understand why? The question does not mention any machine type or whether it is using local or persistent disk. Suspension only work with certain machine type and stopping VM with persistent disk will still preserve the data. Given that VMs use zonal persistent disks by default, without any additional context, I will assume it is persistent disk. Moreover, using instance scheduler is a better option than Cloud Scheduler.
I do not work in a cloud computing field, and my practical real-world experience is limited. I haven't tried non-official Google course materials prior to this. I wonder if it is because of my lack of practical experience hence I can't relate to them easily?

If I were to create an episode of "The Midnight Gospel," I would explore the theme of interconnectedness and the nature of reality. The discussion would revolve around the idea of how everything in the universe is interconnected in intricate ways, and how our perception of reality is shaped by our individual experiences.
The animation would feature a journey through a visually stunning and abstract cosmic landscape. The protagonist, accompanied by a wise and enigmatic guide, would travel through various realms that represent different aspects of existence. Each realm would be characterized by its own unique visual style and symbolism.
Throughout the episode, the discussion would touch upon topics such as quantum physics, consciousness, and the interplay between the observer and the observed. The conversation would delve into concepts like the interconnectedness of all living beings, the illusion of separateness, and the idea that every action we take ripples through the fabric of reality.
The animation would be a blend of vibrant and surreal visuals, incorporating cosmic imagery, fractal patterns, and intricate symbolism. It would aim to visually depict the abstract concepts being discussed and evoke a sense of wonder and awe.
Ultimately, the episode would invite viewers to contemplate their place in the vast interconnected web of existence and encourage a deeper exploration of the nature of reality and the interconnectedness of all things.

Please answer without spoiling the final boss.
I’m exploring beneath hyrule castle looking for the area with the murals at the start of the game and I got to this one point where it said “The power of a sage cannot reach you” or something. And now there’s spare equipment on my left and right and i’m scared if i go further the final boss might start. Should i stop exploring or is it safe to go ahead?

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I'm thinking about trying my hand at writing a litrpg, and I have a couple questions. Namely, how in depth do the rpg mechanics need to be? I'm not interested in making a full on Dungeons and Dragons-esque system with individual stats and characters classes, etc. In fact, I think my story would work best with as little direct comparisons to it being a game as possible.
Let me explain. In my world, people can make an agreement with an (as of now) nameless entity and be given powers. Each character has their own unique powers, and those powers operate according to hard magic (set in stone rules and limitations, etc). Killing certain monsters, also spawned by the nameless entity, lets them absorb the monster's life force. Absorb enough life force and they unlock the next tier of their powers, granting them new abilities within the same powerset and making their existing powers stronger. They can also fight other people who have powers (called Marked) and winning strips the loser of all the life force they've acquired and giving it to the victor. I'm not sure yet if this sets the Marked all the way back down to level 1 or just to the baseline for their current level. Eventually the Marked becomes strong enough to take on a boss monster, and if they win they're allowed to pass through a gate that takes them to another dimension where the process repeats until eventually they reach the final gate and get...something really great, I'm sure.
So taking all of that into consideration, does this even count as a litrpg? Or is it just a fantasy story with some parallels to rpg mechanics in it? Do I need to add more complexity to the rpg systems? The main focus is going to be on the characters' struggles and exploring the world(s) they're in, anyway. Their powers are important, of course, but it's going to be about more than just leveling them up to max stats or whatever.

My STBX (she/they) and myself (he/him) married in 2018 at 22 and 23 years old respectively due in large part to religious pressure. Dated for maybe 7 months before getting married. I was not ready for that commitment - they are the only long term relationship I've ever had and my only sexual partner.
Unsurprisingly, there were lots of problems in our relationship. Turns out she had BPD which made it so that no matter what I did, I couldn't assuage their fear of abandonment and had to endure constant emotional blowups and disregarding of my own feelings. I developed a very codependent attachment where I felt like I had to caretake their emotions (which never worked because of the BPD) which made me feel resentment and check out of the relationship. I haven't been the best spouse either - I shut down emotionally as a defense mechanism and I basically lost all sexual and romantic attraction due to putting myself in the codependent caretaker role.
I asked for a divorce last week because I just don't have any more energy to give to the relationship and I don't even think I wanted to be married in the first place now that I've left my former religion behind. I feel immense guilt because she just started therapy and is recognizing some of those patterns, but the relationship is just dead at this point and I can't give them what they need.
However, I'm concerned about the future. I have a mediocre job and a handful of friends, but almost no dating or sexual experience and very low self esteem. I find myself happiest when I build a sense of community and close friends, but I've spent my 20s trying to caretake my spouse instead of building a community and finding myself. As an almost 30yo introverted divorcee with little dating experience and few friends other than my bandmates here in the city, the prospect of being alone seems so overwhelming and happiness seems out of reach.
I don't hate my spouse but i resent the years i spent trying to make myself as small as possible for them instead of having self-exploration and community building like most people do in their 20s. I'm 28 now and I feel so far behind the people I see around me and I'm really scared that it's too late for me to find contentment, community, and self-actualization after this divorce. I know that sounds melodramatic but I just feel so inferior and like a failure.
I'm in therapy which is the one bright spot. My therapist is great and helpful but I obviously can't rely on them to completely fix me lol.
Can anyone else relate? Any tips?

Hello everyone, was wondering if anyone knows the trick to the revelation of Maya exploration? I’ve tried a couple different methods but never seem to get far in it.

Certainly! Here's a plot outline for a new Zoids movie:
Title: Zoids: Legacy of the Ancients
Plot: In a distant future, where Earth has been ravaged by war and environmental disasters, humanity has rebuilt its civilization and discovered a new source of energy known as Zoidanium. These powerful crystals have the ability to fuel gigantic mechanical beasts called Zoids, which have become a central part of military conflicts and sports competitions.
Introduction: The story follows a young, talented Zoid pilot named Liam, who dreams of becoming a renowned Zoid warrior. He lives in a remote village on the outskirts of the continent, where he cares for a dormant Zoid passed down through generations, known as the Liger Zero X.
The Ancient Prophecy: During an excavation near Liam's village, a group of archaeologists uncovers a mysterious artifact—a tablet depicting an ancient prophecy foretelling the return of the Legendary Zoids and the rise of a hero who will bring balance to the world. Liam discovers that the Liger Zero X is linked to this prophecy and embarks on a journey to uncover the truth behind his Zoid's origins.
Uncovering the Secrets: Liam's quest takes him to ancient ruins, hidden temples, and encounters with a diverse cast of characters—fellow Zoid pilots, scientists, and enigmatic figures who hold fragments of knowledge about the Legendary Zoids. Along the way, he unlocks the true potential of the Liger Zero X, discovering its unique abilities and a hidden connection to the Ancients.
The Return of Ancient Beasts: As Liam delves deeper into the mysteries, he learns that the Legendary Zoids, ancient colossal beings of immense power, have been awakened. However, some seek to harness their power for selfish gains, posing a threat to the world's stability. Liam must rally a team of Zoid pilots, forming an unlikely alliance, to prevent these destructive forces from unleashing chaos and destruction.
Epic Battles and Emotional Bonds: The story culminates in a series of epic battles, featuring intense Zoid duels and massive conflicts between the awakened Legendary Zoids and those seeking to control them. Through these trials, Liam and his allies forge unbreakable bonds, discovering the true meaning of courage, friendship, and sacrifice.
The Legacy of the Ancients: In the climactic final battle, Liam confronts the mastermind behind the chaos, a power-hungry antagonist who seeks to reshape the world using the power of the Legendary Zoids. With the fate of humanity and the future of Zoid technology hanging in the balance, Liam must tap into the true potential of the Liger Zero X and embrace his destiny as the hero foretold in the ancient prophecy.
The movie showcases stunning visuals, exhilarating Zoid battles, and a captivating storyline that explores themes of heritage, destiny, and the ethical use of technology. Fans of the original Zoids series will find nostalgia, while new audiences will be drawn into a world where man and machine collide in epic fashion.
Note: This plot outline is purely fictional and created for the purpose of this response.

I always get the toasted vanilla shanked espresso. One store specifically ends up giving the brown sugar one which I really hate because of all the cinnamon in it. Like the sticker is correct but the drink is wrong. Is there anything I can do when ordering to help prevent that mixup?

Hey girls! I'm looking for something a bit specific, so I thought I'd give it a shot here. I'm a tall, (6'4), attractive, and successful 41m with a major kinky streak, and I'd love to find a SB in the northeast USA who would love to join me. Like a lot of other daddies, I can be pretty busy and have to travel for work often (but these can be SB travel opportunities) and have a home life. Because of that, I'm not asking for a SB to be exclusive or loyal to me, and want to start with something ppm rather than allowance, since I don't know how often we could play.
The other thing I wanted to put here is usually 'frowned on' it seems, but I have a bunch of kinks I'd like to explore with a SB and its a lot more fun if she shares those kinks. I'm also super into 420 and would love a girl down to smoke together. I have a few standard hard limits (all 18+ and no bodily waste or harm), but otherwise extremely open minded, and I tend to be dominant. I absolutely love bdsm, daddy play, public, toys, orgasm denial, creampies, boob play, cnc, and a whole lot more. I'm not totally opposed to online only, but it would have to be a great match.
If any of this intrigues you, let's chat!

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Hi selling some ships, some nice pieces here, PayPal invoice. The prices are EUR and VAT and pp fees included and my country as one of the highest European VAT so if some prices look high to you Sry but I can't do nothing, anyway I'm open to negotiation. If you need something not here Pls ask i have tons of paint , items etcetc too many to list here. Accounts on the bottom.
Original concept ships with Lti if not otherwise specified.
Aegis Avenger stalker 120
Aegis Avenger titan renegade 130 SOLD
Aegis Eclipse serial number alternative skin SOLD
Aegis Hammerhead 840
Aegis Hammerhead with serial number 900
Aegis Redemeer 480 SOLD
Aegis Retaliator Bomber 430
Aegis Reclaimer 550
Aegis Vanguard Hoplite 290
Aegis Vulcan 250
Anvil Arrow 110
Anvil Carrack 600
Anvil terrapin 290
Anvil Hornet 150
Anvil Hornet wildfire 230
Anvil Super Hornet 240
Anvil Crucible 460
Aopoa nox 85
Aopoa nox kue 85
Argo mpuv cargo 60
Argo Mole carbon edition 650 SOLD
Banu Merchantman 600
Consolitadet Outland Pioneer VIP 1700
Land deed estate 8x8. 500 SOLD
Crusader Hercules C2 550
Crusader Genesis Starliner 525
Crusader Ares Ion with radiance skin 450 SOLD
Drake Dragonfly yellowjacket 75 SOLD
Drake Cutlass Bis 2949 120 months 160 SOLD
Esperia Prowler 530
Misc Freelancer 165
Misc Hull B 235
Misc Hull C 400
Misc Odyssey windrider paint 820 SOLD
Origin x1 baseline 85
Origin x1 force 95
Origin x1 velocity 90
Origin 400i with penumbra and meridian 350
Origin 400i with meridian 325
Rsi Constellation Andromeda 300 SOLD
Rsi Mantis with Sabine undersuite and calva helmet
Rsi Polaris Serial number 1100 SOLD
Rsi Orion 600
Citizencom 2948 digital goodies 200 SOLD
Package also lti if not otherwise specified
Fortuna Legends LTI pack Ursa ccued to nomad 750
Lightspeed package Lti with origin suit 350 SOLD
Uee exploration pack 2948 900
Scoundrel pack 900
Pathfinder Lti package 180 SOLD
Entrepreneur pack 740
Banu Combo pack 850 SOLD
Freelancer MIS anniversary with UEE coat 2y 300
Offroad pack Lti 190 SOLD
Ccued ships
Mercury Star Runner bis 2952 lti ccued 225
Carrack lti+600i bis paint and jacket 420 SOLD
Constellation Phoenix LTI +hartwell music sentinel 88c 850 SOLD
Mantis ccued Lti with QUIRINUS tech Sabine suit and calva helmet 400 SOLD
Reclaimer bis 2949 lti 350 SOLD
Caterpillar bis 2949 lti 300 SOLD
Carrack lti 390 SOLD
Carrack bis 2952 lti 500
Caterpillar pirate lti 450 SOLD
Mercury Star Runner bis paint and jac lti 240 SOLD
Scorpius lti 210 sold
Accounts ask for more info pics and prices
2014 Sabre raven grand admiral account with huge buyback and night runner paint 1200 SOLD
2020 Sabre raven and Amd mustang omega high admiral account 650
2013 Sabre raven account 550
2018 Cheap high admiral account 80
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(2) I will remain the original owner only in the event that official contact is required from the parent company (CIG).
(3) I understand that my personal information may be permanently retained in the address and billing sections.
I agree to the above clauses and will not attempt to access, recover or tamper with the said account unless it is requested by the Authorized User.

Hey everyone.
I want to say that I realize some of you have marriages that are crumbling, and some of you have children. What you're going through is bigger than what I am, and I don't want to diminish what you're going through. I'm asking advice about my girlfriend, but this is someone whom I was contemplating marrying and having a kid with before this news came out.
I'm really struggling with whether or not this relationship is worth continuing. I want to, but it feels incredibly exhausting. I don't know what feelings I have are valid, invalid, positive or negative. I don't know what is worth talking about with her, and what I need to work on myself, or even - keep to myself. I understand that talking about the affair can send our day or time into a spiral together, so I find myself avoiding talking about it even when it's on my mind. This most certainly impacts the way I show up in the relationship, and she can almost always tell something is wrong because I either get quiet, or try to distance myself for the day. I don't know how to move forward, and I would really like ya'lls opinion or help.
I feel like explaining what happened will better paint a picture.
About eight months ago, I started dating my partner. We had known each other for several years, because we once had worked together. Things were wonderful between us, however I recognize things were moving very quickly. I had recently gotten out of a long term relationship when I started dating my girlfriend, so I hadn't exactly had the time and space to heal from that. I found the momentum of my new relationship take over and I found myself trying to seek a commitment with her, possibly in order to lock her down/ "make her my girlfriend". I recognize now, that this was a mistake.
She explained that she had a trip planned roughly a month away to go across the country to visit a FWB (lets call him Matt) that she had attended concerts with, and that she didn't feel like being in a relationship at the time was something she wanted. Initially, I was understanding of this and wanted to respect this. As I mentioned before, things between the two of us were moving very quickly. Even though we weren't "committed" to each other, neither of us were actively dating anybody else and would gush over each othetell each other we loved each other. Things felt wonderful, but in the back of my mind - the idea of the looming trip lingered.
I expressed to her that because she had the trip planned, I thought it best to reel things back and just be friends. I didn't want to risk heartbreak because I knew the odds of something happening would be extremely high. She understood this, but we would both go back and forth about continuing to see and spend time with each other. It was hard to stay away, because of our love/infatuation. We would discuss not spending time with each other until after she gets back, and then one of us would get weak and seek each other out.
After this continued for roughly 3 weeks, (trip is roughly 1 week out at this point), I asked her if she would cancel her trip and flight and explore the possibility of "us" and what we could be. She was unwilling to do this, and said that she "needed to close this chapter out" before moving forward with me. I remember speaking to my therapist at the time, and she said that it sounds like she "wants her pie and to eat it too". Anyways, I came to accept that she was going - that was that and there wasn't anything I could do about it other than learn to be okay with it.
I changed positions and accepted that she was going, however I said "I realize that you want to go on this trip, but just because you're going doesn't mean you have to be physical with this person". Initially, she was trying to defend leaving the possibility of something physical happening, to which I explained I didn't understand given how we said we felt about each other. After discussing things for awhile, she told me that she agreed that she would be monogamous with me, and I to her - and that nothing would happen on her trip. She even went as far as contacting the guy she was going to visit and telling him about me, and how we're exclusive and that she wants him to respect that boundary when she comes to visit. I feel naive for believing this, now.
Half-way through her trip, she called me early in the morning crying. I asked her if everything was okay. She said "yes I just miss you, and I'm feeling a little homesick". I asked "did anything happen between the two of you"? She replied "No, nothing like that happened.". I told her that I loved her and that I was looking forward to seeing her in a couple of days.
Fast forward to the day she came back - I was excited to see her but I also had a suspicion that something had happened. I chose not to pressure her or ask her again if anything had happened, and chose to move forward in building our relationship. I felt at the time this would show that I was "unbothered" and not insecure.
It's important for me to also state that she continued to have a "platonic" texting friendship with this individual that she saw on her trip. From the time when she came back, until now - I believe she had been keeping things appropriate (for the most part) that I could see.
As the continuing months went on, things over all were going really well. She started inviting me to family gatherings, to meet her friends, going on vacations, and even professed that she wanted to get married to me and have a child together. All of these things made me feel great. I was so happy to hear how much she was into our relationship.
About a month and a half ago, we went to Texas to visit her family. It was overall a great trip. There was eventually a conversation about a big concert that was going to be happening near our hometown this summer, to which I asked her if she wanted to go. She told me "honestly, I think Matt is going to be flying there to see that concert - and out of respect for you and to avoid awkwardness, I don't think I want to go". This initially made me feel good - that she was being respectful of our relationship. I asked her if she thought it would be hard to go with me and see him there - to which she replied "no, I think that it would be totally fine and he would be respectful as he has been of our relationship". She went on to say that "I think that former lovers or partners can be platonic friends and it has to do with being mature enough to handle something like that". I said that I think I can understand where she's coming from, and that as long as "she was honest about nothing happening on the trip, I didn't think it would be a problem either". She replied "no, nothing happened at all". I believed her, again.
About three weeks ago, I had made dinner reservations for us to have a nice meal just for a random occasion. Before the dinner - she told me that she contacted "Matt" and told him that she wouldn't be attending the concert that summer and that she feels out of respect for her and I's relationship they should reel back their communication with each other. That made me happy to hear, as I had cut off almost all the women friends/ex's that I had out of respect for her quite some time ago. The conversation started to spiral at one point, and I began to ask more focused questions around her trip with "Matt". I asked her if he tried to kiss her. She said "no". I then decided to ask about sleeping arrangements. She said that he slept on the couch and she slept in the bed. I asked her "did you two ever share the bed any of the nights?". She was quiet for a second, and then said "yes we shared a bed one of the nights but he slept on his side". I said "did he try to cuddle you at all, or anything like that?" She was quiet for several seconds. I knew then that something had happened. I pressed harder and asked if they had hooked up. She finally admitted that they did.
I felt sick, betrayed, and like a fool. I don't even think what happened was the worst part. I think the fact that she lied for 6+ months about it and tried to sell this as a "purely platonic" friendship was the worst. I demanded to look at her phone. I went through her phone, and saw that they had pretty frequent communication. Nothing seemingly inappropriate, however when I found the texts about this music festival in our hometown this summer she said "you should come!". I asked her what she meant by that, and she said "I just meant he should go, not come with me.". This felt like a BS excuse to me, but she still defends it to this day. I told her that "I cant do this, and we can't have a relationship without trust" and I left.
She sent me texts that night begging for another chance. Telling me she was confused when it happened and she was very sorry. She told me that she felt pressured into a commitment with me and that she felt like she hadn't finished exploring the possibility with this other guy at the time. After thinking about those details, and how great everything else had been between us - I decided to give us another shot.
She has made significant changes that I had never asked for, but I still feel the pain of betrayal every single day. She has blocked his number, and removed and blocked him off all platforms. She turned on tracking on her phone, read receipts, she has thrown away the merchandise she bought on that trip to see "Matt". She has limited her interactions with her male friends as I have expressed that it just looks bad for her to have solo lunches with single male co-workers. She has been overly communicating when she goes on trips with girlfriends to make me feel more secure. I can tell a lot of these adjustments are really weighing on her, and I do feel bad - but it doesn't make my pain go away.
There are days where I feel this nagging, heavy weight on my soul. It's telling me that a relationship this early should not have this much strife. This is too much work, and maybe I should quit. It has turned me into an insecure man, which I was never before. It has me questioning if I can ever trust her again. The biggest problem, is that I love her and I see the potential for our relationship if we can move past this and pretend like it never happened.
Most days, 90%+ of the time I feel like I can show up in a way where it's not impacting me. These days are wonderful. We share so much love, laughs, and connect on so many levels. The days where it's impacting me, I feel like I shutdown. I try to handle the thoughts myself, which she can tell and it ultimately sabotages us, and our day.
I also find smaller issues "triggering" the big thing that happened. A couple examples would be, she said "you really turned a hoe into a housewife" the other day. For whatever reason, this triggered me because in my head I said "why would you even say that?". This ended up in a long heated discussion over that comment because I expressed to her how it triggered me, and how I view her action on her trip as a "hoe" action and I think that was a trigger.
Recently, she planned a river rafting trip with some friends of hers (2 females, 1 single male friend of hers). I wasn't invited to come on the trip, until after someone else decided they wanted to bring their partner. I expressed to her that I felt like I was an afterthought, and the fact that she was going on a rafting trip with a single guy in the group seems like a no brainer to invite your boyfriend to come a long with, especially after what happened and how we're trying to repair us.
I know this is a huge wall of text. I'm sorry, and thank you for reading. I don't know how to move forward. I love her. She was all I wanted, in the beginning. I feel like what happened has changed me for the worse. Am I making this a bigger deal than it should be? I know if I keep going at this rate, I will implode our relationship with my insecurity. If that doesn't happen, then we will both be consistently miserable and then my biggest fear of something happening again will likely come true.
I could really use any advice on this matter, and also if you think my feelings around what happened are valid or if I'm blowing this out of proportion.
Thank you all.