I'll be your friend song commercial

I'm John and I study web design. I enjoy reading books, playing video games, listening to music, watching kdramas and shows in general, walking and also agonizing about bad choices I made years ago. That was a joke, I do not enjoy the last one. When it comes to games, currently I'm playing League, FFXIV and to a lesser extent stardew valley and valheim. I also have a ps4 and am a big fan of the Witcher, Dragon Age and Souls franchises. Though I'm honestly open to trying things. For books I'll read lots of random ones but in the past I was really into history and science as topics. Currently I'm going through Osamu Dazai's no longer human and also the witcher books. For music I mainly listen to kpop and pop atm but would be happy to share and receive recommendations and Playlists. I do not have any pets atm (though i am hoping to adopt one this summer) but if you do I'd love to hear about them! If any of the things I mentioned drew your interest hmu.

I still go back and read your poems you wrote about me.
I keep rereading them to understand how you saw the world, how you saw me.
Was I the sun? The venus fly trap? Am I the face you see on the rug, as you lay all your favorite things out, the clothes that you hung up to dry, all the tears from last night's wash slowly dripping off them. Was that me?
I think back to the poem about the sky. I see clouds, clouds that dance around and sing songs of you, I see memories flooding onto your face, your bright smile in those golden rays.
I think I've learned the thinking it took to be you, I see a broken sky now, a puzzle piece not worth putting together. You always liked puzzles, didn’t you? It was something in your life you could fix, it would end up perfect, all the shattered glass falling right into its proper place.
When you peel an orange, do you think of me? Do you peel oranges neatly, or does the juice squirt out, causing your eyes to squeeze shut, trying to block out all the pain.
When the monsters crept from under your bed, did you hide? Did you tuck your feet under the covers and watch carefully, making sure to huddle in the corner, to hug your knees for safety.
If you could still shove the universe into one person, to make them your world, the sun, the stars and all the eclipses, who would it be? Who took my place? Who tells you how beautiful the moon looks, after you told me about the sunset?

Well met, weary traveler! Welcome to my humble abode. Be it Fate or your own searching that led you here, be certain that you will not leave my place without clarity or a lighter heart. Beware though, as the cards will tell only the truth, they will not lie or deceive you, be it if you are ready to hear the answers or not. Step in and ask what heavies your soul!
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I am a foreigner and this guy is German, we can communicate in English without any problems. we go to the same school.
He treats me well, he writes first quite often, and he always answers with long messages, always trying to continue the dialogue. Often compliments me like "Ohhhh thoseeee Outfitsss that looks soooo good on you ", "Ur style is awesome rt i like that", "If someone says ur ugly pff they just have a bad taste". When I write to him first and he is busy or playing games, he says that he will write to me later today (later he actually writes). He often tells me something about himself, and is interested in me like “how are you doing? How was your day?". He also wrote me several long messages about the fact that he wants to continue communicating with me, he says that I am a good person. For example "i like u ur a nice person", "ur actually a nice person yk and i like those tiny conversations between us". He always offers to help me learn German. Worries about my health because I don't eat much. I have a lot of things with him in which we are similar, there are so many of them that sometimes it seems strange.
we have known each other for about a year, but we started talking recently.
After reading this, what do you think, he likes me or he just wants to be friends with me.

Had to go to kwik fit today to pick up a friend and as I pulled in and parked ahead of this white fiat, one of the staff was backing out then another staff guy shouted "WHOA WHOA!" then we heard a scraping sound cos he caught the panel that sits over the front left wheel on the wall.
They switched over and the guy backed it out more and more scraping and they had a look at the damage and there was a huge black scratch.
I was like 😬😬. I'd hate to be the guy who has to tell the owner. We would've stayed to see but they were closing and had to leave before they closed the gates.
What do you think will happen? Will they pay to fix it, like they have insurance for that? Or will they just be like "Sorry, mate. It got scratched."
Also after I let a friend have a go at driving my car, I saw a video at the top of my YouTube feed yesterday that said "don't let someone else drive your car" and now this happened and I feel these are signs I'm going to follow.

Been seeing this girl for 8 months. We dated initially then agreed to be friends and see where things led because she didnt feel ready for a relationship (she never dated before).
We became pretty close over the past 8 months but due to some trauma in her life I could tell she kept her distance a little (in terms of being open and vulnerable with me). She seemed emotionally closed off, which was frustrating for me over time given I wanted to develop a deeper connection with her.
While we were “friends”, I made it very clear that I was romantically interested and we flirted a lot and she seemed to always say or do just enough to keep me interested. Anyways, this culminated into me recently trying to kiss her and her rejecting me. She said she wanted to save her first kiss for a special moment. So We had a convo about it and basically she said that initially she was unsure of her feelings for awhile, but has made up her mind that we will never be anything more than friends. She told me how great of a guy I am, how I have been perfect to her and bla bla bla, and that she really just needs a friend in this time in her life.
But yeah basically I’m her only friend, and she said she wants to remain friends and continue to hangout. She said to let her know if I still want to continue. But truthfully I am not down whatsoever, I did try for awhile to just be friends but it’s dishonest to continue trying given my feelings for her, right? And it would hurt me to continue.
So it’s been a few days, do I go ahead and text her basically saying “I don’t want to continue being friends, (you’ve been great, etc), let me know if you change your mind and would be open to dating, best of luck”? Or should I just not text/talk to her and let the silence of the coming weeks speak for itself?

Let's get the pictures/voice clip out of the way immediately so you know if I'm your type or not right? And to treat you with my adorable kitty.
Me rambling (Apologies for any lip smacking sounds): https://voca.ro/1kLnOwDOgAE8
I'm not as serious as I look, I swear: https://imgur.com/a/CBLxCCx
Nothing like a cat butt on your head while trying to sleep: https://imgur.com/kA3iiVV
Face sniffer extraordinaire: https://imgur.com/AClSOtd
Just a pic of the cute kitty: https://imgur.com/a/TDQvhYz
ANYWAY. I'm Michael. I'm a single guy from New York (Not the city) looking for love or at least someone that will play games with me(PC). I'd ideally like someone that's empathetic, is into gaming(Not a must), animals, and voice chatting. I've noticed over the years that it's difficult to find people that put effort into communication, so it'd be nice to find someone that does.
To describe myself? I'd say I'm empathetic, easy going, talkative, competitive, and direct. I say how I feel and focus on communicating with my partner the best I can. As a partner; I'm nurturing, considerate, and affectionate. I want to make YOU happy because that would make me happy. My love languages would be all of them. I don't know how people can pick just a few. I like to do everything for the person I'm with.
When I'm not gaming; I like to exercise, play tag with my cat, watch horror movies, go for walks,, sing to myself, and practice doing voices cus that's fun for me.
Anywho, The games I'm currently playing (I'm open to most games tbh, so if you don't play these, that's okay!):

• Honkai Star Rail
  
• Overwatch 2
  
• Path of Exile
  
• League of Legends
  
• Fortnite (No build only)
  
• Diablo soon
  
• Teamfight Tactics
  

But yeah if you're looking for someone that's emotionally available, can cook, won't ghost you, and will spam you with pics of a very cute orange cat, I'm your guy. So, if my face appeals to you, send a message (if it isn't buggy) and tell me a bit about yourself! We might not fall in love or anything but I'll probably make you laugh at least once.
Thanks for reading 🙂

Let's get the pictures/voice clip out of the way immediately so you know if I'm your type or not right? And to treat you with my adorable kitty.
Me rambling (Apologies for any lip smacking sounds): https://voca.ro/1kLnOwDOgAE8
I'm not as serious as I look, I swear: https://imgur.com/a/CBLxCCx
Nothing like a cat butt on your head while trying to sleep: https://imgur.com/kA3iiVV
Face sniffer extraordinaire: https://imgur.com/AClSOtd
Just a pic of the cute kitty: https://imgur.com/a/TDQvhYz
ANYWAY. I'm Michael. I'm a single guy from New York (Not the city) looking for love or at least someone that will play games with me(PC). I'd ideally like someone that's empathetic, is into gaming(Not a must), animals, and voice chatting. I've noticed over the years that it's difficult to find people that put effort into communication, so it'd be nice to find someone that does.
To describe myself? I'd say I'm empathetic, easy going, talkative, competitive, and direct. I say how I feel and focus on communicating with my partner the best I can. As a partner; I'm nurturing, considerate, and affectionate. I want to make YOU happy because that would make me happy. My love languages would be all of them. I don't know how people can pick just a few. I like to do everything for the person I'm with.
When I'm not gaming; I like to exercise, play tag with my cat, watch horror movies, go for walks,, sing to myself, and practice doing voices cus that's fun for me.
Anywho, The games I'm currently playing (I'm open to most games tbh, so if you don't play these, that's okay!):

• Honkai Star Rail
  
• Overwatch 2
  
• Path of Exile
  
• League of Legends
  
• Fortnite (No build only)
  
• Diablo soon
  
• Teamfight Tactics
  

But yeah if you're looking for someone that's emotionally available, can cook, won't ghost you, and will spam you with pics of a very cute orange cat, I'm your guy. So, if my face appeals to you, send a message (if it isn't buggy) and tell me a bit about yourself! We might not fall in love or anything but I'll probably make you laugh at least once.
Thanks for reading 🙂

Well met, weary traveler! Welcome to my humble abode. Be it Fate or your own searching that led you here, be certain that you will not leave my place without clarity or a lighter heart. Beware though, as the cards will tell only the truth, they will not lie or deceive you, be it if you are ready to hear the answers or not. Step in and ask what heavies your soul!
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• 30 minutes unlimited questions - 25$
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• 3 card spread- 5$
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• 9 card spread- 12$
• Month ahead reading- 8$
• What X thinks about you - 7$
• X's intentions regarding you - 7$
• Future of a relationship - 7$
• General career reading (max 3 questions and a follow up question) - 15$
• Messages from spirit guides - 15$
• Deity identification + small message - 20$
• How to improve your spiritual gifts - 10$
• What you should do regarding a situation (advice) - 10$
• Past life reading - 20$

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If one song plays in the background for the rest of your life, which song would it be?

And I mean in a deep internal way (even though I do feel pretty cute on the outside!).
I grew up with a lot of self love even though I had some insecurities with social cliques as a child. But at the end of the day, I always knew I was an awesome little girl with lovely friends and a great family.
Then right at the end of my teens a series of traumatic events and difficult environments left my self worth deeply shattered. I truly felt like I was a fake, bad person with no value or self worth. And it felt like that for years.
Today though I'm sitting in my room, listening to music, playing a fun game, drinking sparkling water and feeling like life could not get better. Career wise, I have accomplished nothing impressive. I've never had a serious partner and am nowhere close to getting one. I want children, but who knows how that will happen. I doubt I'll be able to own a home with my salary and trajectory. But, my family and friends are alive and so am I.
I am safe. I am healthy. I have someone I can hug if I need to. I have a clean home to sleep in. This is enough.
I'm so grateful for my simple life. I've released myself of the need to be the best human living the most efficient, successful, and impressive life ever.
Today, I am nothing more than a human drinking a nice drink on a sunny day and I cannot think of anything else that could make me happier.

About me:
Age: 14 (15 soon)
Height: 4'9-5'0
Weight: underweight
I'm British, I also don't smoke, or drink anything.
No meds, or therapists etc.
I'm pale, and have a bad diet. (Eating like rubbish) and i never go outside. (i'm pale.) and my sleep routine is horrible.
So basically, my dad died back in 2019. From lung cancer. I was 10 at the time, and I already knew he was gonna. You know. And after he died. I couldn't really believe it? but the grief didn't click in, until September / November, of 2019. But then at the time, I started going through really stressful, things like, bullying. Name-calling. Harassment. (These had happened online. I know it may not seem like such a big deal but it ruined my self-confidence, and mental health.) And it got worse in 2020, because I got abused online as well And my mental health, got worse to the point where I had urges to kill / harm myself, (I hardly have them anymore, which I'm glad about. Family issues. Stressed Almost constant crying
(The reasons why I'm saying this, is because it could explain why I'm dealing with the stuff I'm about to put down.)
December, 8th, 2020, was the time I got sick.
It was in my stomach, and I though "oh I'm just sick it will pass", but it just got worse. And it would keep, growling, and I lost my appetite fully and didn't even wanna eat. But the thing I realised was that I was stressed / worried about it. Because I though it was stomach cancer. (Still do.) And it would make me feel like I was gonna throw up,
And in 2021. I still had. It. No appetite still, no nothing. Just feeling sick. But I still ate, and drank everyday. But online stuff happened again. (Which I think made it worse? I don't know. And my mental health worse.) But then I started thinking my stomach was gonna collapse. And I started worrying more about it.
And in this year, same stuff. With my stomach. But in April 2022. I had a panic attack? I also had left arm aches / pains. So basically went downstairs, and told my mum about it. And we started talking, about stuff. And i stood up from the chair, and then all sudden, my head started feeling SUPER weird. And I said "mum my head feels weird!" And she said "your probably having a panic attack." And then i started panicking, and said "mum, mum I think I'm dying!!" And I went down on to the kitchen floor.and my brother said "your fine." And my mum said "this is because of your dad." And then she went to open the door for me to get air. And I still felt weird. And my hands were shaking. (I can't remember but I think my mouth /lips was dry.) But the thing is I felt like I was forcing the shaking. Because I was making myself shake (but again I probably wasn't. I did not do it for attention, I know that would of been bad. etc I was seriously scared, that I was gonna die in front of my mum and brother.) . But when I stopped my body felt like nothing. And my breathing was a bit weird a swell. And my mum was trying to talk me out of it. And then a few minutes later, I went to stand up, and go upstairs, but my whole body, and legs felt weird. Very weird. But then I felt the whole night, watching tiktok to distract myself. But then next day, my mum told my older brother that I was having panic attacks. That same day, I felt like I was freak, out and call an ambulance, because I felt like I was going to die. And I was worrying about my health. (Still do.)
and i am also getting forgetfulness. feeling like something is in my throat for a few minutes, and feeling sweaty,(doesn't last long.) when i panic over something. stuttering, headaches. weird head feelings, and weird feeling slightly under my stomach by my hips. dry, mouth / lips sometimes, and feeling like i will gag? on my foods / drinks now.
And my symptoms kept changing.
And now this year, my symptoms have pretty much changed like they have been.
but my stomach still keeps growling for no reason I lost my appetite, 2-3 years ago when this started, but I feel weird, like very weird like the weird feelings you get when you feel like you're about to end up in a hospital? I can't explain my weird feelings, and I feel like I can't think straight? But I can? But I keep looming at things without blinking for a few seconds and my face was just been blank? In a way, and I'm getting weird fuzzy feelings at the side of my face. and I'm scared I'm dying, or it's an illness. But the weird feelings do go away, but they come back after a few hours, or minutes, I know I need therapy, and help but the waiting lists. I'm trying to learn to cope with it. Because I know it won't go away just by ignoring it, and I know as much as I'm worried for my health know I been through a lot of stress, etc and now I been going puberty for a couple years.Anxiety feels like a nightmare, and I hate it. I wish I could stop feeling constantly weird, and strange etc. It's a very very weird and strange feeling and it's odd. I can't explain anything.
But I can't keep letting it get the best of me because I will just need to learn, to accept it as much as its hard to. I'll just accept it and I'll keep telling my mum for therapy or even see a doctor It's terrifying but i know I can get through this oll run around my house etc etc etc for distractions etc until I can get a therapist which I know will take long, but I hope I won't be like this forever and ever.
And I also have a white patch on my tongue it kinds looks like milk? And sometimes I feel a very weird weird feeling that something will happen? And most times I breathe I feel something in my throat lime its my heart beat? Or if my heart skips a beat or something when I breathe sometimes?
But also a good thing is, is that I can drink and eat fine, and I'm not in any bad pains at all, I just physically feel weird, and I can't explain the feelings. But when I sleep, I wake up In the middle of the night for no reason, so that might be from stress.
Does anybody else experience or know what I mean? I don't know why I keep worrying about my health I constantly seek reassurance and it kinda makes me feel a attention seeker.but i also have this weird cold feeling at my back (the cold feeling you get when you're sick?) but i have it at my back, and i don't have a lot of symptoms of anxiety and it's scaring me. are people different with anxiety and stress? do they have different things with it? because i know everybody is different but i'm still scared.
has anybody else had this? i feel like i'm the only person. i think i actually have a illness or something i just feel sick and strange constantly. but i'm planning on getting stress/anxiety gummies i'm terrified.
and i'm thinking about therapy? but i just wanna take small steps for starters.
and i also never see anybody with this same thing as me so i'm scared.
and my hear also makes a drop feeling, even when my heart isn't racing etc it happens out of nowhere, and it's weird, and when i breathed in, i like felt it in my throat? and i just feel awful, and weird constantly, it sucks. it really does suck. i just feel like i'm gonna die or if i have some type of serious/deadly illness etc, i just want it to stop. i don't even have a clue if this is normal or not. i just hope others have, had the same things/thing has me. it sucks i feel alone. it feels like something is wrong inside my body and i can't explain it i'm so sick of it. i feel like i'm about to die any second.
should i change my diet, and sleep routine? and get anxiety/stress gummies from amazon? (they probably won't work but i wanna take small steps.)
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So I don't understand what's going on? Why am I getting these weird physical symptoms? Because I don't know if it is anxiety, or is just from stress or some kind, of trauma? I don't know but I'm scared, can a doctor or nurse help please.
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Let me preface this by saying I'm not entitled to anyone's time, money, or effort. I'll be grateful for anything I receive. Things are expensive and times are hard. This is more a practicality and cost discussion.
I'm due at the very beginning of October and I'm planning my shower for August. I want to have it a little early, and my brother is getting married in September. I don't want to take any attention away from the wedding. I was crunching the numbers and to have a reasonable shower with a rented space, food, invitations and mild decorations is $450. This isn't a bad cost at all. My mother and sister even split the cost and I'm very thankful. I was planning to pay for everything.
To the shower. To be blunt, people don't come to things. Again, I'm not entitled for people to drop what they're doing and show up. However, there's plenty of posts on this sub saying that large numbers of people decline or even worse, they RSVP and no show without notice. My thought is what's the point if the cost of what I need is the same cost as the shower? My husband and I bought all the large baby items. Almost everything on my registry is $40 or less. Most items are $20 or less and the total is around the $450. I know I'll be disappointed if I spend my mom and sister's money on a shower and no one shows up.
What are your thoughts on a shower? I don't know if I should add that my family is now very small. It'll mostly be friends or coworkers who are invited totalling maybe 25 people. If I decided not to have a shower, I would give my mom and sister's money back and buy the items I needed unless someone wanted to contribute.

As the title suggests, you do not "deserve" a second chance. I believe that the average person in the West understands how society functions, especially in the digital age. The things that are respected, not respected, admired and frowned upon. However, I feel there is a higher rate of entitlement in today's day and age than in the past. I understand that we all have a past and made mistakes but it is people's prerogative to forgive you or dismiss your past. Especially if we are talking about things one did despite knowing the societal repercussions. I know that sometimes life pushes us one way or the other and we do what we can to come up on top but it does not change the outlook on things in society. You made on ônly Friends, got big, your pics went everywhere, regretted it, deleted it, your pictures are everywhere and you are struggling to find men who overlook it? You knew what you were getting into before doing so. Whoever chooses to overlook it, good. If they choose not to? Their prerogative. You were a drug dealer who had to be in that life because of numerous factors outside of your control, got arrested numerous times, now have a criminal record, left the industry and now can't get a job? It really does suck and I hope you come up on top but society is how it is and it is people's prerogative to give you a job or not. You are single and have several kids by several men or women, which has shrunk your dating pool? It sucks, it really does but it is their prerogative to choose not to deal with you.I see an overload of content online full of people crying in entitlement because they are in a predicament and reaping what it entails to be there. My heart goes out to those who got into certain situations, which was entirely and fully out of their control. I empathise with them, but I don't dictate society's perception and acceptance towards certain things. As for those who ignored people telling them not to do something and still went ahead and did it, deal with it. The example I provided, in the beginning, is based on a real-life situation. I have a friend whom I actively advised against creating Plus 18 content, she ignored me, created the account, got big, and made a lot of money for one year, and everyone in town found out. EVERYONE. Pictures got shared, got disowned, stopped making money as subscribers faded, graduated and couldn't find a job as a lawyer as a byproduct of that. Not a cultural fit they told her. This was 3 years ago. To this day, she still has not been able to white collar job. You type her name and surname online and pictures pop.She struggles to date, no one around us wants to take her seriously and she got super depressed. She blames society, I guess you can blame society. But guess what, society was like this before you made that decision, you had friends telling you against it to protect you and when the inevitable happened, you wanted to backtrack. The internet is forever. I am genuinely not against most things, call it a certain type of content creation... you do you. However, if the inevitable happens ladies and gents, do not cry. You were a grown individual to make a decision, be the same grown individual to deal with the repercussions. We can scream as much as we want that a certain type of work is real work, that c people deserve second chances in whatever but I believe that it is the worst advice you can give to people you care about. This is not a Utopia, people judge, discriminate, and insult, it can be a nasty place. The last thing you want is to make it easy for society to cross you and turn your life into a living hell. Take responsibility. Own your choices.

i (21f) have been vegetarian since i was 11 years old, and went vegan a few months ago. eating meat has never felt right to me and i stopped eating it pretty much as soon as i found out people could be vegetarian. not eating meat has been something that i've always felt very strongly about, but i honestly didn't think much about it for a long time. all i did was avoid meat and meat products and go on my merry way. but since realizing the hypocrisy of me consuming animal products and making the switch to veganism, it's been on my mind a LOT. i am a people pleaser, and i have always tried to appear "chill" about my views, so as to make sure nobody thought i was a preachy vegan. but i'm becoming aware of that now, and it disgusts me. why should i have to pretend i don't care about murder? i have always told people "oh i'm just vegetarian/vegan, but u can do whatever u want!" i've made myself quieter, more docile, just to gain people's affection. if i'm completely honest, the idea that people i love and care about pay to murder animals makes me absolutely sick. how could people not have the same empathy that i had when i was fucking eleven years old? how could such intelligent people be so completely blind to their hypocrisy? going vegan gave me a rush of excitement and happiness at first, because i started to truly live within my own moral compass. i've been told my entire life i need to "toughen up" but there are millions of vegans who never did. that was lovely, but the past few months i've had moments where i've been ripping my hair out at shit i used to just ignore. i was watching a youtube video about disturbing historical events, and the host skipped over the ones about animal abuse because it "upset her too much" but then in her advertisement SHE WAS COOKING MEAT! that wouldn't have been that upsetting to me before, but now it just makes me angry. how could anyone be that stupid? i work at a dog grooming salon, and obviously all of my coworkers love dogs and cats, and claim to love all animals; but i am the only vegan that works there. none of them are even vegetarian. they'll bring dead animals to eat, into a place where we pet and take care of animals. how could their cognitive dissonance be so severe? i was dogsitting for a friend of mine, and she had a bunch of cow decorations in her house, which made me happy because i love cows. but on the last day i was there, she texted and asked me to take the ground beef out of the freezer for her. i'm sure she didn't think about it like that, but how dark is it to decorate your home with images of the animals you pay to have raped and murdered? i'm happy i went vegan, i just didn't know it'd be so goddamn frustrating.

Michelin starred home lasagna chef seeking a woman for shared culinary pursuits. Also an accomplished chicken tenders and tots maker, so I’m willing to adapt if that’s more your speed.
A little about me – I’m a stable and friendly guy that checks all the Certified Adult boxes (own a home, successful career, no secret pile of gambling debt, does my own laundry). I am an engaged full-time father, CFO by day and youth soccer coach on the weekends. A+ in listening and empathy, D- in diagnosing car problems. I value long term solid relationships and am lucky to have a circle of close friends that I have known for decades. I’m a bit of a caretakefixer – I enjoy helping to bring out the best in those around me, but I also find independence to be a very attractive quality. I’m up for casual fun, but am really looking for something long term with the right person, so I appreciate when you are genuine about your intentions and promise the same in return. I love to travel, so an adventurous spirit is important to me – I’d really like to meet someone that appreciates checking out a new cheese shop or noodle house on the weekends, road tripping to the shore for some great seafood, and would enjoy roaming the Mediterranean together someday.

I sometimes I get ill like go the hospital ill and my family have tasked me with having to ask someone near me for their number in case one day something happens and I don’t have anyone I can ask around me at all so I don’t what the solution is. To give context I go to university and live alone and do everything alone I assume they think I’d have someone cause I don’t tell them I have no friends or anyone really in an effort to make them not worry so advice would be appreciated

Hi all! This is my first post here and it's largely prompted by a wish to seek advice from people who are truly objective regarding my situation compared to family and friends of myself and the mother to be of my child. Some background - I am from the UK and currently live in northern England. Last Autumn I spent a few months in France teaching English. Two days before returning to the UK I had a date, we hooked up and two weeks later (and back in the UK) E contacted me to tell me she was pregnant and very likely to go through with the pregnancy. I have never wanted or planned to have children (though enjoy looking after other peoples' when I've had the opportunity), but made sure to put no pressure on E re her decision. She gave me the opportunity to be involved or not and I couldn't really imagine having a child out there and having no involvement. We're now nearing the 3rd trimester and we have been in contact most days and visited each other a couple of times. For various reasons, a couple of planned visits have been cancelled, which means we haven't seen each other since February, which has caused strain between us at times and feels quite surreal. We agreed on attempting a romantic relationship, not just co-parenting, even though I think most people we both know have advised this raises the stakes a bit and potential problems if that side of things go wrong. Our relationship has been quite up and down - sometimes it feels really great, healthy and nice, others utterly toxic and highly emotionally reactive. My feeling is, I don't know how healthy it is to maintain the romantic side of things given how we can both behave towards one another when we're at our most fearful, immature and weak, especially for the sake of the child. However, when I broached this with E recently, she was quite surprised and told me she's not willing to give up on the romantic side of things. This is in response to me telling her I can't handle the ups and downs between us, her very regular criticisms and unnecessary mean comments and my feeling I have to walk on egg shells all the time to avoid big emotional reactions. As I've alluded to, my behaviour also isn't perfect, but I can't remember making negative comments about her personality traits (even if I've wanted to during arguments etc) as I feel this is a bit of a read line and just leads to undermining the other person and making them feel smaller, insecure and even a little bullied. I've also had friends (mostly women, plus a couple who are therapists) and relatives suggest I'm quite probably being gas-lit and a bit bullied at times, but also that this is probably in part due to fear on both sides and not a great deal of trust given we've only known each other for 6 months and are embarking on a (hopefully!) decades long journey together. Anyway, I often struggle to bring up important issues surrounding how we will parent when things are calm and good between us because I want to keep the peace. The problem with this is that I'll then sometimes let worries and frustrations out when we argue, in a crappy way, because there's a feeling of 'what difference will it make?' when things are already bad. There are a couple of things I want to get people's thoughts on, so I can gauge how reasonable they are... Firstly, something I've felt a bit down about is that E made the decision, with no discussion, that the child will spend 'her first few years' growing up in France. For many reasons, I think this probably makes sense. What upset me a bit was the fact this has never been discussed properly, but presented to me as a fait accompli. Maybe it's silly of me, but I would even just preferred a bit of lip service paid to me, if E had made up her mind, but had a discussion around it, so I could ask some questions and also suggest some alternatives (and how long baby /child will spend in the UK if fully time based in FR). Secondly, early on in the pregnancy my thinking was to move to France after the birth. E owns a flat, her family and friends are there, so as a new mum, it does make sense she's there and if baby is there, it would be good if I am. However, in the last few months, given how intense and extreme we can blow up, I feel the two of us in a one bedroom flat could be a toxic environment for the baby (and ourselves). My mum, brother, closest friends all feel I shouldn't move there, which would involve giving up my job, family, general life etc here, to possibly move to France, then things maybe go wrong and I'm coming back again, but to nothing. Obviously it could work well, but it's a big risk. Leading on from this - Part of the reason I've never planned to have kids is I've never been very comfortable financially and it would be a major struggle for me on this front. E isn't rich, but she owns her place and has inheritance from her mother passing away and has said she can take care of herself and the child by herself if necessary. She has a good career as a teacher, so I kind of put forward the idea of us trying out my being a stay at home father, so she can continue with her career whilst I do the daily work of raising the baby (which our society should regard as work which deserves monetary support, but that's another issue). During one argument a few weeks ago E was incredibly spiteful and told me I was out buying clothes and not spending a cent on my daughter. Other than this being quite an unpleasant thing to say, it was in reaction to my sending her a picture in some new work clothes I bought for cheap in a sale as I didn't really have many (and have to wear to be able to work and earn money!) and months before the baby is even born. She has made comments like this which I feel are quite extreme, like using my anxiety against me during arguments and telling me I should do something about it as if I don't, it will impact our daughter. She's saying this as someone who has had suicide attempts in the past and is being treated for depression, both things I would never dream of throwing in her face during an argument to infer it's a risk to the baby... E seems to be of the opinion I should move to France and that I could easily get a job working in a bar or cafe. To me this seems kind of bizarre as I've never done that kind of work, currently work in a law firm and my French is sort of intermediate level. It seems pretty blase and a matter of just kind of throwing out things I could do and I'm fairly sure if I don't go along with this stuff, it will be read as not being bothered or taking responsibility, but I see it as wildly irresponsible to give up my job here, to just turn up there with not much savings in the hope I might get a badly paid, exhausting job, whilst trying to raise a child (having been raised by a single mum working several jobs at once at some points, I know this isn't great for anyone). My current thinking is that for the sake of my mental health, well-being and given the advice I've received from people who care about me, I should stay in the UK, maintain my job (and income) to help financially and we have an agreement for regular visits. I did mention this weeks ago and E immediately went to what, looking back, feels a bit like emotional blackmail by saying if I didn't move there, we couldn't have a relationship as she didn't want a long distance one. Paranoid me wonders if she wants a relationship now as she's worried about me abandoning ship if I meet someone else etc (especially at a time when she's less likely or wishing to whilst heavily pregnant), but non-paranoid me knows she does genuinely want one. Living in the city I currently live in, doing the job I'm doing has lead to my having the best mental health I've experienced in years (discounting the anxiety caused by the baby stuff). I'm really nervous about just throwing that away, even though I'm aware it's always possible to try moving to France and coming back if it doesn't work. Anyway, I appreciate this is long, but at times I'm feeling that my life is now kind of running on someone else's timeline and to their preferred life wishes and kind of fantasy existence. Another aspect to all this is that as a queer (bi) guy, who has my issues with the nuclear family and is interested in alternative ways of raising kids (more communally, less in the spirit of biological mum and dad sort of 'owning' the child), it can feel a bit frustrating as I think E is thinking more traditionally on this stuff. That's of course completely fair, no one way is right or wrong, I'm just concerned about the differences in approach. This post is largely born of a feeling of being 'unheard' and being aware of an inability (probably of both sides) to discuss big things like this calmly and rationally, without quickly descending into rows. I also want to give the caveat that I'm aware this is only one side of the story. E is a good person and there are lots of wonderful things about her, but like me, she's impatient and emotionally reactive (and has suffered some pretty major trauma from a couple of horrible life events). She's been going through her pregnancy with the support of friends and family, but without a close partner, which is pretty amazing, but also saddens and frustrates me that I've not been there to do basic things for and with her. If you have any thoughts or advice, I would greatly appreciate it. Please be nice! :)

i am so frustrated with paypal right now that and over protective security in general
how many websites how many logins how many times have you been asked every freaking place you go to now online it seems. to enter a confirmation code , a sms code. a capacha .......anything and everything else they can possibly throw at you in the name of "security" only to just make the user experience far more frustrating and annoying.
so anyways i ordered a drone from DJI store the mini 3 only to find out the one feature i wanted to be able to slow down its speed is not in the mini 3 only in the pro. so thankfully i cancelled the order before it shipped. HOWEVER now when using my SAME paypal account that i did like JUST The other day............NOW in tryin to use it to get the mini 3 pro it puts up the freaking phone verification crap . well heres the problem right now i dont have a cell phone other then skype number which of course guess what? Paypal wont accept.
so i try to stupidly use their support chat........first they say it may take a while to respond then it implies it will connect me to another human being........well first time it took FOREEVER then the guy flat out ignored what i was saying and i had to say again which of course lead to more waiting and waiting......worse is unlike MOST OTHER chat support sites where you can leave the chat window minimized and then go about what you have to do and come back............well with paypal guess what? you have to SIT THERE in the window and if you close it out for even a few minutes. POOF it kicks you out of chat. and while if you pull it back up it seems to show the chat again. one message i got before says to not close it out......so im thinking if it does it will mess it up and likely NOT reconnect you.. i have a disability so cant really use phone support.
its HORRIBLE. and i decided to say f-it . and close it out after like 40 minutes of this crap
im just gotta get my friend to send the verification to her as she doesnt use paypal otherwise on her phone i know technically thats a violation but i trust her and SCREW paypal
of course she sleeps all day and is not the best at responding back at times so now i gotta sit and wait and wait and wait for her to get up to respond.
i tell you what my life is not easy at all but hey i try. im getting that damn drone whatever it costs. F_ you paypal and your sh*tty ass chat system and your OVER PROTECTIVE security
oh and yeah you cant verify by email NOPE of course gotta freaking be SMS
but hey whatever thankfully after i get the drone thats the only main purchase i will be needing from paypal for a while the pos .
otherwise normally i LIKE paypal and usually have no problems but its sh*t like this that really reallly really p*ss me off

Hey everyone,
I (M20) find myself at a crossroads and I am seeking your advice on a difficult situation. To give a brief rundown, I have developed deep feelings for a very good friend (F20) of mine. We're close and share a lot, but she is currently in a relationship that she found through Valorant and subsequently, on Discord. While they've been dating only for about 5 months, I've been observing some signs that their relationship seems unhealthy, even toxic. Despite this, she continues to refer to her boyfriend with endearing terms, and this is breaking my heart. (Could I even be bias to think its really toxic in the first place? She told me herself that she feels it gets toxic sometimes)
Today was the final day of our semester at university, and we had to present our annual review. She was very stressed about it, to the point of breaking down in tears. Naturally, as her friend and someone who cares deeply about her, I wanted to help. However, she brushed me off and turned to her boyfriend for support instead. I won't lie, it hurt a lot. Not because I believe I am more qualified to help her, but because I wasn't the first person she thought to turn to in her time of distress. It saddened me to realize I'm not her go-to person for comfort.
I feel like I'm struggling with the dichotomy of my feelings for her and my role as her friend. I'm not even sure if she's aware of the depth of my feelings for her. It's a real struggle watching someone you care for deeply in a relationship that seems to bring them more distress than joy, while simultaneously having to suppress your own feelings for them.
I'm just not sure what to do anymore. Should I confess my feelings to her in hopes that it might offer her a different perspective on her current relationship? Or should I just continue to offer my support as a friend and hope that she eventually finds her way out of this situation on her own? Or perhaps I should take some distance to protect myself from getting more hurt?
I don't want our friendship to suffer, and I don't want to make her situation even more complicated than it already is. But it's becoming increasingly difficult for me to suppress my feelings. I'm truly at a loss and would greatly appreciate any advice you can offer ❤️.
I know she must be going through a lot and I don't want to add to it, but I'm also in pain. Any insights would be truly appreciated.
Thank you all.